jerking off and reading about murders

FBI movies and Sci Fi and PAWN

I hate music - its a tool of satin to drive us from paradise

calssics - recent reads include - Mice & Men, Lolita, To Kill A Mocking Bird, One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest

cute girls

not cute girls

everyone hates me but theres no reason, its a sort of mind game the world plays against me. Person to person im a really nice guy. Theres very little that me and serial killers dont have in common except that im not a serial killer so i've in fact achieved even less. Also, not being in prison means I dont get 3 square meals a day and people to chat to, but my home is about the same size as a prison cell, and if im lucky i get to go out for 1 hour a day for some excersise. Am I in prison, of course not.

favorites include Peter Sutcliffee, I call him Saint Peter as he was a saint. Society rejected him and made him a grave digger whilst other people had jobs where they could have a bit more pride in themselves. He was an intelligent person. They did the same to me except I worked in a warehouse. Anyway, god spoke to him and he believed, and like they say, would you do what god told you? If you were a true believer? Oh, its ok for you to do it if its 'for the good'. But what Peter did was for the good. He did what god told him and attacked a part of society that destroys us men in their prime, the power of women to withhold their love. Peter acted for all the poor souls that spend their lives jerking off in cold empty rooms alone whilst women sell their souls to the highest bidders - leaving us alone because we are not that great socially. I dont hate women or whores, Peter just played a part in an eternal struggle between right and wrong, but most importatnly he acted out of faith in god to address a wrong. What he did was not right but he only killed 13 or so women and made people think for over 10 years or so. The USA murdered over 1 million people for what can arguably be described as just a morally undefencable act. As such, I would rather support Peter Sutcliffe who lived in truth before god and chose a difficult to follow life, as a believer, than politicians and corporates who live their lives in lies and create far more pain. Saint Peter used his precious life to act for people like me, and he is now in heaven, upstairs in his mind. He is in Broadmoor now and I live right near there and I went to the carpark and sat outside it. I entered his world and he was kind and full of sorrow because it was the first time I had been out of the house in months other than going to the shops. Peter lived his life and addressed his and our frustrations. In my mind I went on the Saint Peter crash course and I saw advertising boards with his name on it and special messages, and I also saw how god gave him the victims. God told me I had a hammer and told me to go into a strange corridor and to follow it and I did and it would around and went upstairs and in a quite location there was a toilet and I entered it and there was a man and I understood that I should hit him on the head with my hammer but I didn't because it was an imaginery hammer and I am not a serial killer. However, it taught me that these murderers and killers are not always acting in the way the media describes, they are acting under god and it is their right to live in truth and righetousness. Thats all really. God rest the sould of the victims, and for your interest, we should have the death sentence in the UK, Why dont we. People that murder should die. Peter should die for his crimes, that is the price, but even so, I can emphasise with what he did and in another world would call him a saint.