I'm so fucking annoyed!!!
My mother found out that her father, the guy who raised her wasn't her real father from her Grandmother.
My mother rang my Nanna and told her that she knew that and demanded to know who her real father is.. i'm not sure what went down all i know is that my nanna got upset and my mother never found out.. this all went down when i was like 8years old i think?? it was sometime before i rannaway from home and never went back..

Today i get a phone call and it's from my Nanna.
she's been trying to get hold of me since my birthday but i was never home.
Anyway we were talking about my mother.. my nanna told me that she's been getting Letters from her and that she was wanting pictures of her as a child cuz she was doing a family tree for Tafe.
My nanna was like "she's not getting any photo's from me.. she always gets in contact with me when she wants something."
i said "next she'll want to know the name of her real father." this surprised her i guess cuz she never knew i knew about it. she said "your mother already knows" i was like "well she claimed that she didn't"
i've always want to know but didn't know how to say anything without upsetting her..anyway i asked her who my real grandfather was.. she was like "he's dead so it doesn't matter" i was like "it does matter cuz he's part of my family history and if i don't know who he is my family background will be forever broken and plus i have the right to know"
my nanna was like "everyone has the right to know but don't get to know everything all the time"
she told me she'll think it about it..and get back to me.
IS IT THAT HARD JUST TO TELL SOMEONE A NAME!!!! ERRRR!!!
will she even get back to me about it? or is she just avoiding the question and hopes it's never brought back up again?
My poppy will always been my poppy..he marride my nanna when my mother's dad took off and found out my nanna was with child..
he raised my mother as one of his own and loved me with all his heart..he'll always be my poppy no matter what..i just want to know what's in my blood!! errrrrr!!!!
i asked her if she was ashamed of what happened btw him and her she said "no i'm not ashamed" errrr what's the fucking deal then? i won't bring shit up again as soon as i know his name i'll do my own searches FUCK!! is it okay to be annoyed?? or am i going overboard?? i dunno??

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